Really trying not to give up..😖

 

Maybe I should give up.

Giving up on stuff.

I spend to fill a endless void.

To live like this is a choice .

I have this need to explain 

Even so it’s seem like all I do is complain.

Never really happy or at peace .

I don’t know how to really keep .

Keep whats important to me .

I’ve lost so many times .

I’ve wrote about this in so many lines.

I can’t act like I am fine .

Maybe it’s not in the cards.

All the pressure tells me it’s too hard.

All I want to  do is to go somewhere far .

No not the bar.

Somewhere I can think.

Where I can safely blink.

Where I don’t feel like all I am is a problem.

I have figure out how to solve them .

Cause what I am doing not ain’t working .

Gotta do something .

It’s better than doing nothing .

If I give up now , it’s really is the end of the story.

That’s when I really should worry .

I still have time to make it right .

Let please make it through these rough nights.

Let me not always resort to drinking 1-3 cans.

I’m not saying it’s impossible but it can be hard when you go down that path.

Gotta think about this as if it were math.

One person plus one opportunity equals a chance each day .

After all we tell the negatives not today .

I Still Got It...😕

Why am I in my head so much these days?

Lately in conversations , I really don’t have much to say .

One thing I know is that this  is depression.

Sounds like I’m in a need of a therapy session.

Yet when I speak I go off track.

When I get cut off, I just want to snap.

Trying to keep my cool or enough to stay sane.

Trying to hold on to my life in this crazy game.

I don’t want to be a burden to my friends.

I don’t want this to be the end.

Holding it all in so I don’t make anyone my therapist.

Gotta get back on my feet so I can take care of this .

Taking care of me overall is a necessity.

Too many opinions is something I don’t need.

Everyone has their place .

Everyone goes at their own pace .

So for right now I don’t need ppl all in my face .

When you aren’t the same they just leave you be.

I guess they think if they leave you alone so they can be free.

That’s just an opinion, I didn’t say i was right.

Speaking my mind on these lines here, I ain’t trying to fight .

So let me do right by me  and tell myself that it will be alright .